Title – Desperately Seeking Epic
Author – BN Toler
Publication Date – March 23, 2016
Paul James loved Clara Bateman.
Hating her would have been easier.
She was the past, and he was hell-bent on keeping her there.
Or so he thought…
Craigslist Ad: DESPERATELY SEEKING EPIC
You’re my father.
I don’t know much about you. I know your name is Paul James, you’re a thrill seeker, and once upon a time you did stunts and people called you ‘Epic.’
I’ve been told you don’t know about me. That it’s complicated.
But for me it’s simple.
Here’s the thing: I’m twelve years old…and I’m dying.
And as much as this could crush my mother, I have to meet you before I go.
In time, I’m sure she’ll understand. She’s still in love with you.
So, Epic, if you read this, please come back. You don’t have to be my dad. You don’t even have to tell me you love me or you’re sorry. Just come see me.
Patiently waiting, but running out of time,
How do you write a review for a book that has left such a profound mark on you? Anything I could possibly say wouldn’t do this book any type of justice. The unique synopsis is what piqued my curiosity in Desperately Seeking Epic, but I never would have imagined the heartbreakingly poignant journey I would be taken on inside the pages. This is the first book I have picked up by B.N. Toler, but I can say with utmost certainty that I am not ready to be done with the magic in her writing yet.
“Paul has a way about him. It’s hard to explain. He draws you in and sometimes you don’t even realize it’s happening until it’s too late. That’s how it happened to me.”
Clara, Paul, and Neena truly encapsulated me from beginning to end. Their story was one of devastation and loss, but also of happiness and immeasurable love. With the unique approach that Toler took to their story, I found myself becoming more and more invested in the outcome of these characters, as well as the secondary ones. Readers are able to revisit the past, weaved with the present day, through interviews that Clara and Paul give. I was enchanted with not only their personalities, but their love story as they told it. Toler didn’t just dictate their romance; she allowed readers to experience it with Neena and the others.
“How does a mother sum up in words the depth of her love for her child?”
I’m not going to lie and say I didn’t need tissues for this read. In fact, I was an emotional, sobbing mess by the end. However, that profound emotion is what led me to appreciate the greater message that translated through. Desperately Seeking Epic is so beyond a romance between a man and a woman. I don’t want to give anything away and lessen the experience for other readers. Yet, I do hope that everyone closes this book, sighs a big heave of a breath, and feels ready to accomplish something for themselves.
“I’ve been around the world and seen some of the most beautiful places, but nothing compares to seeing her laugh.”
To use the author’s words from her title in summation seems like the easy way out, but epic is honestly the word that continues to be at the forefront of my brain when thinking of this novel. Desperately Seeking Epic by B.N. Toler took me on the greatest of emotional rollercoasters, but I feel like a better person for having read it. I feel changed in some way, though I can’t pinpoint how. If you’re looking for a novel that will make you giggle, yet feel those heartstrings being tugged, this novel is an absolute must read. Desperately Seeking Epic is a top read of the year for me, and I’m pretty sure I will not be alone!
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B N Toler lives in Virginia. When she’s not reading and writing, she’s thinking about reading and writing. Before she became a self-proclaimed writer, she worked as a real estate agent and as an orthodontic technician. **She will notice your teeth before your eyes or hair or anything.**
She enjoys shopping (way too much) and is on a first name basis with several employees at the local Target in her town.
She loves music,(bluegrass, country, 80’s, actually she loves most music ~her favorite song is American Pie by Don McLean and she worships anything that is Elvis and Johnny Cash and Eric Church) dancing, (even though she sucks at it)reading, writing, eating (too much) sleeping late, (which she rarely gets to do) and laughing. If you can make her laugh, she will love you forever.