Title – F*ck Love
Author – Tarryn Fisher
Publication Date – January 1, 2016
Helena Conway has fallen in love.
But not unprovoked.
Kit Isley is everything she’s not—unstructured, untethered,
and not even a little bit careful.
It could all be so beautiful … if he wasn’t dating her best friend.
Helena must defy her heart, do the right thing, and think of others.
Until she doesn’t.
From the moment I discovered her, Tarryn Fisher became one of those writers that I love to read because of her unconventionality. She’s bold, unique, and not afraid to color outside of every single line people may draw. Her writing is able to take me on a journey, both externally and internally. I always see slivers, and sometimes chunks, of myself mirrored in the words on the page. I wasn’t quite sure what to expect from F*ck Love, but I’ll tell you that Fisher far exceeded anything I could have dreamed. The words in this novel bled into my soul and felt like life pouring into my veins. It was beautifully heartbreaking and unforgettable.
“We think we can control our lives, but our lives control us. And everything that touches our lives controls us. People have less power than they think they do. It’s just the reactions we control.”
I swear that I have never highlighted a book as much as I did F*ck Love. I’m not sure if the novel came at an appropriate time in my life or if it is just the nature of Tarryn Fisher’s writing and character development, but I couldn’t help but feel everything to the core. It was almost like I was her heroine, and maybe that’s why I find myself falling in love with her words every single time. She writes her characters flawed, yet beautiful in their imperfections. As a woman, I related to Helena, but as a scarred, broken girl, I became her; I felt Helena pump through my blood and her heartbreak and emotion jumpstart my heart.
“An hour with you and I felt like the inspiration I’d been waiting for my whole life hit me all at once.”
In F*ck Love, Fisher writes, “I abandon before I can be abandoned”, and I think that sums up Helena and her actions pretty well. However, when I read that line, it awakened something within me because of how deeply it resonated as well. She has her quirks and her insecurities, but I related to her on such a deep level that I couldn’t help but love her dearly. I admired the strength and courage she developed and in some odd way, it brought me comfort and hope. There were so many times that Kit was a total mystery to me. He had something about him that drew you in, though I still can’t really pinpoint what it is. He was a decent man who fought to do the right thing despite the ripples he set in motion, and I couldn’t fault him for that, no matter how much I wanted to shake him at times. These two characters were just incredibly special to me; they burrowed their way under my skin and I want to be able to live their essence and experience their love.
“I was just a flat line until he came along. And maybe now I’m hurting. But isn’t that what love is supposed to do? Make you feel, make you brave, make you look at yourself more carefully?”
F*ck Love was my first read of 2016, and if it’s any indication of how the rest of the year will be, it’s going to be a fantastic one. Fisher is an extremely gifted writer, and whether you like her books or not, I don’t think that can be denied. She questions life and normalcy, love and picture perfection. It’s an art form, and one that this author excels at beyond measure. I loved F*ck Love and everything it stood for and made me question. I sure have missed Tarryn Fisher’s writing, but it definitely takes a piece of my heart and soul whenever I close that last chapter. I highly recommend giving this one a click!
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