Title: Finding Me
Author: Mariah Dietz
Series: His, #3
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Release Date: June 1, 2015
I came here to escape. Leave the debris and avoid the inevitable truths.
Things are better.
I’m finding me, but in the process I fear I’m forgetting those I have left, and the ones who have left me. Maybe I’m losing who I was.
Can I forget my past and move forward?
Can I forget him?
Finding Me is the final book in Max and Ace’s journey and a heartbreaking story of grief, regret, and forgiveness. There is no easy way to sum up this book because it was so all-consuming. I felt emotionally exhausted after reading Finding Me, having invested all of myself in Max and Ace. Mariah Dietz stirs up powerful emotions with her poignant prose, transporting the reader into the heads and hearts of her beautifully broken characters. Finding Me will break you, grow you, and change you as you experience the incredible weight that this story carries. Mariah Dietz has written a book that is unbelievably genuine, stunning me with its brutal honesty and devastating loss. Each ray of light that Mariah shines through this story feels like a breath of fresh air, delivering with it hope and the promise of something more to come. The secondary characters were each a ray of light in their own right, giving Finding Me an overall sense of wholeness and peace.
“Max is starting to finally fade like a shadow when the sun sets, really slowly stretched and then quickly disappearing.”
Ace really blew me away in this book. I can’t say I’ve ever met another character like Ace, her personality and personal journey so one-of-a-kind. Her struggles were very much my own, connecting me to her in a profound way. Her inability to handle her grief, navigate her emotions, and accept love made her journey all the more heart-wrenching. I loved every minute of her growth as she finally reached out for help and struggled to find herself. Watching this vibrant young woman define herself was breathtaking in its pure demonstration of the human experience. Ace exemplifies Mariah Dietz’s remarkable understanding of the heart, embodying its susceptibility to grief, endless capacity for love, and inherent ability to find home. The ties between Max and Ace linger, maintaining their feelings at a simmer while they move in their own directions and try to heal, creating an underlying tension that had my heart beating and breaking as I prayed for Max and Ace to get their happily ever after.
“You deserve everything. You deserve someone that is going to give you every single ounce of themself to you. Every smile, every laugh, every thought, every hope, and ever tear, because you’re worth every piece.”
If you’ve ever known devastating loss, this book will tear at your heart. Mariah Dietz has written the emotions of grief and regret with such fierceness that they burn right through you. Her words have seared themselves to my soul, leaving me with a book hangover I can’t even begin to describe. It is obvious that Mariah Dietz feels this story deeply, resulting in a book that is so full of life and loss and love. Even the tiniest details were clearly given careful thought in order to tell this story flawlessly. My reaction to Finding Me was visceral in a way that few books can achieve. My chest ached and stomach dropped, as I took this journey with Max and Ace. I cried in that hard and ugly way only deep emotion can invoke because I was so overwhelmed by all that this story had to offer. Mariah Dietz has definitely found her place in the literary world, earning a rare no-questions-asked-one-click from me in the future. I can’t wait to see what this unquestionably talented lady comes up with next. I’m missing the His Series already. Ace and Max have definitely left their mark.
Finding Me by Mariah Dietz was the perfect conclusion to Max and Ace’s story. I can’t even pinpoint the reason I love the series so much; it’s a relationship that grips my heart, squeezes, and then lets me breathe again. The angst and emotions experienced are so genuine that you can’t help but to relate to the characters and situations presented on so many different levels.
“I just didn’t know how to leave behind the memories without leaving pieces of me behind as well.”
Dietz has enchanted me with her characters from the very beginning, but this book elevated them to an entirely different level. While they’ve always been on their own journeys, Finding Me was about them truly learning about themselves, as well as gaining a deeper understanding of each other. Ace comes home for her sister’s wedding and finds herself navigating different feelings and emotions. She’s forced to confront the demons she has been running from, while also learning who she was, independent of the youngest Bosse sister. There is something so delicate yet pragmatic about the way Dietz does this, especially through her use of Fitz.
“I question if I should stop him or just allow him to go. I know from my own experiences that sometimes there isn’t a right answer.”
I also loved seeing the pushback from Max in this novel. He didn’t accept anything for what it was and although I wanted to slap him countless times, a part of me understood his motives and even admired him for his actions. He started to more carefully guard his heart, while still realizing that you can’t stop love. He has always been a special character for me, but this book easily put him in my top five book boyfriends. I do wish that we could have seen into his head a little bit more, particularly in a few key scenes, but I never felt completely bereft because of the way the author describes him through Ace’s eyes.
“Am I the only one struggling to know what is a memory and what is reality?”
The journey we went on during Finding Me is what the New Adult genre should be all about. The characters had to discover who they were in life, in love, and in all of their relationships really. I honestly think that the antics and craziness, as well as the complexity of the different relationships, is what made me fall in love with the His series in the first place. Furthermore, I found myself highlighting so many portions of this book because, for those of us without a guiding light, there are certainly some words of wisdom to follow and take to heart.
“All you can do is choose to be present during your life, and pay attention.”
I’m incredibly sad that the story of Max and Ace is over because I’ve fallen head over heels in love with all these characters. There’s something about this author’s writing that makes the words flow effortlessly; you find yourself falling down a rabbit hole with no desire to hold on. I loved immersing myself in this series and I certainly look forward to what Mariah Dietz will produce next. If you’re looking for a New Adult novel that captures the very essence of being an adult navigating the events of a brand new world, do yourself a favor and dive in to this series!
With Max and Ace’s story coming to a close, we asked Mariah Dietz to share her favorite scenes with us.
Top 5 Favorite Scenes of the His Series:
1- Reuniting with her sisters and brother-in-laws, and the silent exchange of love they each shared. (Finding Me)
2- Ace’s discussions with Kitty. I really don’t have a single favorite because I truly fell in love with Kitty and can’t select a single one. (Finding Me)
3- David (Ace’s Dad) quoting Corneille and telling her how we all make mistakes, even when we love someone beyond measure, we can still screw up.
4- Kendall and Ace TP’ing Marshall (the creepy neighbor’s) house. (Becoming His)
5- Attending Billy’s wedding (Losing Her)
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Don’t miss the rest of the His series:
Becoming His (His #1)
Losing Her (His #2)
Mariah Dietz lives in Eastern Washington with her husband and two sons that are the axis of her crazy and wonderful world.
Mariah grew up in a tiny town outside of Portland, Oregon, where she spent the majority of her time immersed in the pages of books that she both read and created.
She has a love for all things that include her sons, good coffee, books, travel, and dark chocolate. She also has a deep passion for the stories she writes, and hopes readers enjoy the journeys she takes them on, as much as she loves creating them.