Title: Out of Mind
Author: Jen McLaughlin
Series: Out of Line #3
Release Date: April 26, 2014
Reaching for sunlight…
Finn survived the ambush and came home to me, but in his head, the battle is still raging. He’s falling apart and I’m trying my best to pick up the pieces of him, to find the us we used to be. I love him as much as I ever did, but love isn’t enough to fix this. I thought telling my father about our relationship would be the hardest thing we’d ever have to face. I was wrong.
Lost in shadows…
All I wanted was to be worthy of Carrie. One mission, just one, and I’d be able to give her the future she deserved. Then everything went wrong, leaving me tainted and broken. Carrie wants me to be who I was, but all that’s left is what they made of me. I’m no good for her. No good for anyone like this. I have to figure out how to move forward. Alone.
Sometimes love isn’t enough…
Out of Mind just about tore my heart out. Finn and Carrie’s story picks up shortly after it left off in Out of Time. Finn and Carrie are both home in D.C. trying to deal with the aftermath of Finn’s time overseas. Finn is a broken man and Carrie feels powerless to help heal him. The time has come for them to choose to fight for their relationship or walk away. With their decisions came a hurricane of emotions that kept me reading and worrying until the end. If anyone deserved a happily ever after, it was these two. I loved seeing more of the secondary characters. We had more time with Carrie’s family, Riley, and her roommate Marie. Their presence really added to my love for Carrie and Finn, allowing me to see them in yet another new light.
“I’m not sure it will ever fully go away. That’s not fair to you. You deserve more than half a heart from a girl.”
I admire Jen McLaughlin for the honesty with which she portrayed Finn’s return from deployment. As hard as it was to watch him struggle to cope with his new physical limitations, the emotional ramifications of what he went through were truly heartbreaking. PTSD is such a horrific reality for so many people and I’m always wary of its portrayal in books. There is no “fixing” it, there is only time to heal and therapy to redefine normal. Finn’s internal battle would prove to be the hardest thing he’s ever had to face and it would push those who loved him to the edge. I applaud Jen for doing justice to such a harsh reality and for addressing it with the honesty and compassion it deserves.
“I don’t want to be in love anymore. Love isn’t worth the pain. Not if it hurts like this. It isn’t safe. It’s not real. It leaves all too fast, as soon as one person decides they’re done.”
Finn and Carrie’s relationship really went through the ringer this time around. This story had me back and forth, upside down, and inside out. Jen McLaughlin didn’t hesitate to put Carrie and Finn’s relationship to the test. Both characters did a lot of growing in this book, learning that love isn’t always easy. Jen really revealed the extent of Carrie’s compassion in this story. Her love and loyalty was such a beautiful thing to watch. I loved seeing her as the strong one in their relationship, the one making sure they were both safe. Experiencing Finn’s vulnerability made him incredibly human and I was able to really connect with him in this book. Out of Mind had a ton of emotion. I laughed and cried and let Finn win my heart all over again. I absolutely adored the epilogue and wasn’t ready to let Finn and Carrie go yet.
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Check out the rest of the Out of Line series:
Out of Line (Out of Line #1)
Out of Time (Out of Line #2)
Fractured Lines (Out of Line #4)
Blurred Lines (Out of Line #5)
Out of Line Series Box Set (includes books 1-3):